Sure, you can be impulsive and follow every whim you have today: but that probably won't make you very happy at the end of the day. Right now, you need structure. Following the rules and behaving yourself might not sound like fun, but it's the best route to take today. Be more thorough on your current projects and show those who are watching that you know how to take big responsibilities seriously. Prove yourself today and you'll be well-rewarded.